Tag Archives: The Secret

I’m having a pity party, come on in

16 Apr

The magic number is  two, one, two

That is what is posted as the amount we would will win if when we hit 6 numbers on this weekend’s Florida Powerball.

Two hundred and twelve millions

Millions… there is A LOT of zeros in there – LOTS!

I’m dreaming a bit, I know, I know it’s a fantasy, but why in the hell not? Have you not read the secret? You need to PUT it OUT THERE, VISUALIZE IT, EMBRACE IT, LIVE IT and the UNIVERSE will give it BACK.  And we are so ready!

So, as I was passing the big billboard, on my way home from work last night, revealing those magic numbers for everyone to see, I replayed the classic “money/no object” game in my head. You know, the one where you ask: “If money were no object, what would I do?”

This is a fun game to play, and it’s even better when you realize that you wouldn’t change much about your plan or daily life.  Maybe attitude would be a better description?

Ok, yeah, I mean, there will be a change of plan of course; there will be lots of changes. But ultimately, the only think I could come up after asking this question was “relief”. Why relief? Well, because ultimately hitting the jackpot will give us the ability to lift this heavy thing we carry around all day long – the one that is crushing us a bit each day.

It’s no secret, right now we are struggling (and everyone else I gather) a bit in the financial front. Tom has just switched jobs, and while it pays more than the previous job, it’s a slow climb to making a bit more on every paycheck. And as for me, work has decided that I can do the job of 4 people, at the bargain price of one low-end employee.  So, yes, I have joined the ranks of over-worked employee, and HATING EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

And I can hear you already, shouting – “you are so ungrateful there are SO MANY people without a job out there – count yourself lucky that you have a job at all.” And yes, it may be true, that I’m a bit unappreciative and selfish, but you know what? I do wake up giving thanks everyday that I have a job to go to, that Tom has a job to go to. But, this is our reality. This is our issues, and it may surprise some of you, that I may feel lucky while at the same time feeling I’m drowning as well.

But, it’s there, that feeling and it won’t go away.. and dude, this is my pity party – come on in, have a seat and if you don’t like it, there is the door.

It sucks, and its taking a toll on us. We are by no means people who spend huge amounts of money on wimps and things. But, we both would love to ride in that feeling of “relief” that comes from knowing that bills will be paid on time, without doing complicating math order to juggle that bank account balance. That we can take a  vacation to get-away and not think about spending that extra buck in that over-price drink with the umbrella on top. Or the fact that we can live in the house we want without any compromising. That we can give back and help others less lucky than us.  That we can guarantee our children’s future.  That we can work on what we love and not for a paycheck.

Yes, “Relief”, that is what those magic numbers will bring to us.

So, I’m putting it out there, practicing visualization, knowing that we hold that ticket that will give us our relief…

…and the ability to afford the over-price drinks with the umbrella on top.


Fancy, Snazzy and in white

28 Apr

No it’s not what you guys think (even thought I got quite a bit of secrets stored up in the Pandora box of my life).

Apparently I have been practicing the art of “the Secret” – sending out the message to the universe that I want something, I’m deserving of something, and I will get it, no-matter-what.  and what do I desire?

A nice, fanzy, snazzy iPhone.

Apparently the laws of attraction are in full force.

A couple of month’s back I left Metro piece of shit PCS for the glamorous world of AT&T.  Mainly because Tom had a family plan and it was cheaper.  At that time, during my phone picking, I was lured by the iPhone, and as I drooled over it in the showroom, sensibility took over and I ended up with a nice Sony Ericsson. And up to this point it has worked just fine. Ok, I DID NOT have the fancy, snazzy, iPhone, but, me? Rational me? well I.could.deal.

(You know where this is going don’t you?)

And the story could end there…Except! all of my friends had the fancy, snazzy iPhone. And do you know HOW HARD IS TO BE THE ODD MAN OUT AND DEAL?

Yeah, I thought so. (At least in my world)

This past weekend, the iPhone proved its dependability and coolness factor. It GPS us across 2 states, numerous towns and cities and even let us tip the waiter the right amount while splitting the check equal 5 ways.

Yeah, I suffered

Sometime between leaving North Carolina and arriving back home… I lost my dependable, not-so-snazzy Sony Ericsson cell phone.

Last seen? Between 7:30 and 8:30pm, Sunday Night.

Monday we sent out an all out searched party with no success. We search high and low, in places where there was not a possibility in hell that the phone could be there.  But, we searched – EVERYWHERE.  And the phone just went up in smoke – POOF.  No where to be found.

I could take it as bad luck and my ability to be so organized that sometimes, in tiny, itsy, bitsy instances, my perfect arranged world something is bound to fall thru the cracks – because you now, life is there to TEACH US A LESSON at ALL TIMES and not get so comfy.

But, I knew deep down that for the past months, I have been visualizing and imagining myself with an iPhone.  In my purse, in my hand, in my house…everywhere!  The words “I cannot afford it”, “It’s to expensive” have been replace with “I’m an iPhone magnet and it will come to me effortlessly and easily”.

Yes, sir, lots of mombo-jumbo around these parts.

But, the fact of the matter is that losing my Sony Ericsson has paved the way to obtaining what I wanted the first place – a fancy, snazzy iPhone.

Preferably, in white, which a cool case to go with it.